Searching with my good eye closed

Searching with my good eye closed

By adminSaturday - December 9th, 2006Categories: Uncategorized


The manta ray will always strike out blindly and therefore it’s danger is already known, however no one expects a cute little bunny to bear it’s sharp teeth and tear into your flesh as well.
I feel angry that I feel that I may have to censor myself just so I can write about how hurt and betrayed I feel.
But there, I’ve said it all now.
I feel hurt and betrayed.
I am stressed out that feel that I have to act perfect in certain social situations right now.
I feel that some people don’t seem to want to take responsibility for their actions.
When you act using your emotions first, without anything else but your emotions driving the situation, you run the risk of hurting people.
People get hurt, that’s what life is all about.
You either take the risk or you don’t.
The point is, don’t ask people you hurt to magically be okay with everything.
Like you can wave a wand and all the hurt and betrayal, just vanishes….poof!
Like that.
Damn it if only it was that easy…then I wouldn’t feel so empty and alone right now.
I’m generally fine…until I start thinking.
If my mind is busy then I don’t feel anything…and if I didn’t have so much stuff going on right now, then I could just block off all of my emotions and pretend like everything is fine.
Unfortunately I can’t do that.

I’m also very angry but trying to explain why I am, involves knowledge of psychology so I will merely leave it as such:

A dog circles several times before it lies down. It doesn’t know why it does it…it may not even know that it is doing it but it still happens.

“It just means that you’d rather be with someone you hate than to be with me”

Winamp needs to stop being so dead on with it’s randomness:

If I am silent then I am not real
If I speak up then no one will hear
If I wear a mask there’s somewhere to hide

Silence is Golden
I have been broken
Safe in my own skin
So nobody wins

If I raise my voice will someone get hurt
And if I can’t feel then I won’t get touched
If no truths are spoken then no lies can hide

Silence is Golden
I have been broken
Safe in my own skin
So nobody wins

Silence is golden
Nobody gets in
Safe in my own skin
So nobody wins

Did you hear me speak
Do you understand
Did you hear my voice
Will you hold my hand
Do you understand me

Won’t someone listen
Nobody gets it
My body’s a temple
But nothing is simple

Silence is golden
I have been broken
Something was stolen
Safe in my own skin

Safe in my own skin
Won’t someone listen

My body’s a temple
But nothing is simple
My body’s a temple
But nothing is simple

Something was stolen
I have been broken
I have been broken
Silence is golden
I have been broken
Safe in my own skin